Saturday, November 11, 2017

For one present moment...I was found!

     This morning I was washed in the glory of awe. It was a lovely and emotionally moving experience, something I've not felt in a long enough of time that I can't recall when last I was awed. I intentionally chose to walk through the wooded path along the south side of BYU campus this morning. Currently, there's no water in the makeshift stream and several trees have dropped their leaves for the winter season and yet it was awe inspiring to be alive and experiencing human-ness as I absorbed the colors and textures of bushes, trees, and bits of greenery still clinging to plants. I removed my earbuds prior to entering the path so that I would be open to the possibility of birds. And indeed, the slate-colored junco's were chirping and singing their sweet songs of joy. It really was amazing, and I suddenly realized and acknowledged that this was awe-ness. I felt a shudder deep within my chest wall and a longing to cry for a moment as I was overcome with deep gratitude to be right there in a moment of deep love and absorption with nobody or anything blocking the experience. It was just me and nature alone and together at the same time. I was simply seeing and feeling joy. Willing to feel love for such an earth of gorgeous creation, I even extended gratitude for that anonymous someone's skills who help beautify such spots on the earth.
     I left the path only to find more to behold with my naked eyes. The sky was blue with a crisp cleanness in the air. The sun, just coming up over the mountains to the east of me. I looked northward to see the top of Mt. Timpanogos bathed in the snow that previously fell this week. I was even aware of chiaroscuro and tenebrism effects against the slopes of the mountains as I progressed towards the Lee library.
     I'm glad my day has started with a bit of a nature fix, with gratitude and thanks. Now I can read and prep for exams and research for the day.  Thank you Mother Earth for all you offer me to behold and to grow in awe of. I hope to be open to creating many more opportunities this winter.

Image result for byu south walking path
Something to look forward to when it snows.

Saturday, May 27, 2017

Prayer Before The Prayer

I want to be willing to forgive
But I dare not ask for the will to forgive
In case you give it to me
And I am not yet ready
I am not yet ready for my heart to soften
I am not yet ready to be vulnerable again
Not yet ready to see that there is humanity in my tormentor’s eyes
Or that the one who hurt me may also have cried
I am not yet ready for the journey
I am not yet interested in the path
I am at the prayer before the prayer of forgiveness
Grant me the will to want to forgive
Grant it to me not yet but soon
Can I even form the words
Forgive me?
Dare I even look?
Do I dare to see the hurt I have caused:
I can glimpse all the shattered pieces of that fragile thing
That soul trying to rise on the broken wings of hope
But only out of the corner of my eye
I am afraid of it
And if I am afraid to see
How can I not be afraid to say
Forgive me?
Is there a place where we can meet?
You and me
The place in the middle
Where we straddle the lines
Where you are right
And I am right too
And both of us are wrong and wronged
Can we meet there?
And look for the place where the path begins
The path that ends when we forgive.

From The Book of Forgiving: the Fourfold Path for Healing Ourselves and Our World
by Desmond Tutu and Mpho Tutu

Image : ‘Reconciliation’ by Josefina de Vasconcellos, 1977. The Old Cathedral, Coventry, England

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Mormon Stories 246-249: A Mormon’s Spiritual Transformation through Meditation & the Hindu Yogic Tradition

In this episode Andrew Ainsworth interviews Phil McLemore to discuss his own spiritual transformation through meditation & the Hindu yogic tradition.
  • Part 1: Phil McLemore’s conversion to Mormonism & spiritual transformation through meditation
  • Part 2: How to meditate and why you should; Mantras in Mormon culture
  • Part 3: Mormon Mantras & The Yoga of Christ
  • Part 4: The Yoga of Christ continued
A big thanks to Richard Holdman for his audio production support in this podcast.

Friday, December 25, 2015

Mindfulness Research...

Here is a link to the 2011 Volume 12 of Contemporary Buddhism in a PDF form. This issue is completely dedicated to mindfulness Based Stress Reduction/Cognitive Therapy.

I have read several of the articles now and if your interested in bringing a greater level of peace into your life and practice then I suggest reading this journal.  :)

I am interested in the term Dukkha, which basically means the suffering we put ourselves into with thoughts that aren't correct but we think they are especially if we feel an emotion with the thoughts. Then I heard about the 4 noble truths which this journal also addresses and that was interesting. I love using or trying to use loving kindness meditation and there is a nice article about this too. Plus much more.

Thursday, December 24, 2015

60 Minutes Special on Mindfulness - Anderson Cooper

It was August 2014 and I was visiting Seattle with my daughters. We had spent the day sightseeing at my old stomping grounds of my childhood and we decided to go to the beach just west of Ballard.
It was at this beach that I learned I was accepted into the Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction course in SLC lead by Vicky Kennedy Overfelt.

That acceptance started the beginning of several new path opening up for me to enter.  Below is the link for the 60 Minutes production on mindfulness with Jon Kabat-Zinn.

I am now working the steps to become certified as an instructor. Maybe I will help others but mostly I want to help myself which will indeed help others on their journey as well.

Rats, the site says you need a membership...  Above is the youtube video:  and this one:

Friday, July 24, 2015

Thursday, July 9, 2015

This is what i was needing...

I'm sitting in our rv, Gove has gone to bed and I'm watching our teens being children as they are out catching fire flies and i am listening to the amazing sounds of the Limberlost.
The kids just brought me 7 fire flies and are back out to find other creatures of the night. Kind of like in The Girl of the Limberlost.

Today we stopped at the James Townsend store and found some treasures. Tia a drum, Eli blue linen breeches, Gove grey linen breeches and short bodices for Beth and myself plus a new fife, coins, buttons. We left the festival brochure and Ryan gave us a tour of the whole factory. We were very fortunate to see how the felt hats are stretched.

Tonight is what i needed...nature.

Gene Stratton Porter's cabin home

We have arrived just after closing yet able to walk to the home of my favorite author.
It's almost 10pm and our teens are out side catching fire flies.
The Limberlost woods are as noisy as Gene discribed them in her wonderful book Freckles.

Monday, February 2, 2015

Audio for 12 Steps and 12 Traditions

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