Friday, October 31, 2008

If you have a garden and a library, you have everything you need.


Wednesday, October 29, 2008

If You Ask, They'll Give You More Then You Expected...

After my last post, I called the county elections office to make sure they had the poll sites covered.

This is what I heard: "We just had a cancellation. Can you go to Salem Elementary?"

Ya, I guess I can.

Open your mouth and you find more then you know what to do with.

Welcome to Salem Elementary! "Your the new poll manager", said the voice on the other end of the phone. "Come take 6 hours of training Monday and spend 14 hours Tuesday at the voting site", and oh, btw, "you'll earn a $180 tax free".

I'm not doing it for the money, I can tell you that much! I'm doing it because of the 5,000 Year Leap. This seems a way to start and get involved with the voting process, and government issues.

I bet I'll have a different mind set come 9Pm November 4th.

My memories of voting in New Orleans are not that great. I hope there won't be any voter rage going on.

I know, I'll bring relaxing music.

Six Days and Counting Down...

Don't worry, you'll be seeing more of him. Gove found a book of Norman Rockwell art at the D.I. last week. I see many pictures that feel fitting for our day as well. I'll be sharing as I feel moved upon.

I was hoping to get a call from the county with a request to help with next Tuesday's polling day. Seems they found their quota.

Just Carving Around...

I distinctly remember posting pictures of pumpkins just last week.

Yet my blog post said it was last year!

Oh, the passage of days and time.

It's wonderful to be alive and blessed with family and friends.

Here we are playing with denatured alcohol . (With the flash.)

Without the flash. Now you see the flame.

It's like magic.

Our end results of carving almost in the dark.

With the flash, and...

Without the flash. How scary....

Birthdays x2...

Mattia had a happy birthday last Thursday.

Wow, she gets baptized this Saturday and I still need to get out with her and find a special dress with the puffiest of puffed sleeves. Boy I hope we don't let her down on this one. I admit she is a forgiving girls when things don't work out as she had hoped.

We are kind of crazy parents, look at what we bought our last child.

Mattia's dream of finally owning a horse she could almost ride has come true.

Gove had a great birthday gift on his birthday. We had dinner with Susan and Harvey Black. Two of his favorite people and I have to say I really appreciated and learned from Susan's example of graciousness while hosting guest in her home. She was so good at directing conversation back to other people. I felt warmed being in her presence.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

If a man empties his purse into his head, no man can take it away from him. An investment in knowledge always pays the best interest.

Benjamin Franklin

Sunday, October 26, 2008

A Treat For Mom...

This past weekend was the 3rd annual Mom's Retreat held in Park City. I discovered that this meeting fills quickly. So when I emailed the TJFA group wanting more information, it was to late to attend.

Yet another angel made contact with me! Thursday, I received an email from Yulia who tells me she has a ticket for the Mom's Retreat. Yes, I'd like to go. What I don't tell Yulia is that I've been sad all week and was hoping that if I could go it might help lift my spirits. I feel that Heavenly Father worked on my behalf through Yulia. I'm sad Yulia missed this event and I hope I can write something about the experience that can be helpful to her. (Not in this post.)

I so wish I had that new pen that records voice and what you are writing and then you can download it to your computer (what is that pen called?).

I decided to attend. Just prior to leaving, I asked Gove for a blessing as I sometimes attend events and end up feeling like I'm not doing things well enough. At this retreat, I did not feel inadequate at all. As a matter of fact, this Mom's Retreat was a spiritual blessing to me. I meet Cherly who lives up the hill from me, Elizabeth and Kim who live in Springville, and other moms in the general area. I made up my mind that I would go and talk to others about these ideas for clubs and see if anyone would be interested or thought these ideas would be of interest to children. I even took my book list that I mention in the post before this and requested people to add to the list.

I am thankful to have attended a gathering where I felt everyone was desirous to be feed by the scriptures and nourished through the Holy Ghost. And then to add fellowshipping and networking, I was up until midnight which is hard for me to do these days.

Someone had taken the time to post inspirational sayings all over the building. I woke up Saturday morning after about 5hours of sleep and decided to copy every single thought. I am going to add them to my quote section over time.

The theme was "The Power of Mother's: Finding and Fulfilling Your Mission". As soon as I saw this I knew I needed to attend. I would not say that one presenter was better then another. I was touched in my mind and heart as well as my testimony for the cause we as mothers are foreordained to accomplish.

I appreciated Diann Jeppson's stories of her progressions towards the development and preparation for the mission she feels called to serve within. She talked of nine mission mile markers. Hunger and Thirst, Awakening, Preparation, Mission Mentors, Doors, Confirmation, Becoming decisive, Lessons Learned, and Miracles. I think I will typed up my notes in a hopefully coherent manner and then I'll most a link (here) when it's ready. I feel like some of these markers she spoke of are beginning to happen to me. I don't know if I'm ready for a mentor, and confirmation concerns me. I kind of feel I just need to get to work. She said to take action and do it. Forget yourself and go to work.

I realized or had my mind open enough to understand this morning that the development of these clubs are steps in the development of myself for the missions that God has for me. And I see my greatest mission has been going on long before I came to earth. My greatest mission is motherhood and all the forms it takes. It's not just about my very own children. It's the mothering of generations. It's the inspiring and guiding and the learning that I too have to gain.
(We just got home from dinner with the Blacks. As we were leaving, I said how I look forward to heaven and being mentored by the many great women (including Susan) and men of the earth. It's exciting to me to think of learning. I'm not sure it's learning for all eternity. I wonder if we come to a point where all is known by looking into something that I read Joseph Smith describe in his teachings. I'll have to read the teachings of our other prophets to gain a better understanding and of course there is pondering and faith that go along with this.

I would like to come back to this another day. It's time for sleep...

By Faith, and Small Steps...

The first weekend of October is always General Conference for those of us who are LDS. This month was no exception. Coinciding with this conference is our families six month inventories.

Between sessions (covering two days), I finished reading Beautiful Girlhood. As I read this book, I felt ideas come into my mind for the development of a girls club that would cover short books with underlying themes related to a particular set of manners within the development of girlhood. Today, I'm not sure where to go with this. There is a part of me feeling like it needs to wait and develop more in my heart and mind and to allow my daughters to get a little older.

While attending to my inventory I felt the impression that I need to help Provo homeschoolers who believe in the leadership philosophy or TJED as it is commonly called. How I ask myself? Here are the three areas that have been on my mind.

1. I need to begin a book club for 9-12 year old boys and girls. It would be once a month, in our home. I have started a list of books for this age group. If you have suggestions, please add your thought at the end of this post. i can see having the kids share a paragraph about something that influenced them from the reading or anything else they are reading that month. I'd like to talk and develop ideas for manners for both the girls and boys.

2. This sounds crazy to me, but I keep thinking of the line from a Kevin Costner movie about a ball park, "If you build it, they will come." I keep second guessing myself with this one. But I think I should hold a monthly gathering when mom's can come and share what they have learned that month or what they want to learn. I think this could open up mentors for each other or direct women to potential mentors. I see the older children playing down stairs, and the young toddlers and babies with the women in the living room and we share anything on our minds and discuss leadership education avenues. I'm hesitant as to weather this would be helpful or discouraging for some moms, such as myself. I find myself so sensitive to not being good enough.

3. A core and love of learning themed weekly club that meets at the library. This idea was first planted in my mind by my friend Jenny who is exploding with ideas since moving and participating with the Monticello TJEDers. (One of the talks at conference was about the people around us who are angles at times. I think it was Jeffrey Holland.) I see this as an opportunity like the talk. And I invision that this group can be a big help to my youngest who needs practise with her articulation skills. I can see having the children stand and share what they learned from the assigned theme for the week or anything else they have learned that excites them.

These three ideas have been on my mind most of this month. Then I start to think or rather allow negative thoughts like,"I''m not cut out for this", "maybe it's just my imagination", "did God bless me with these promptings and if he did , how am I going to do this', etc.

Then a second angel came to me with the offer of help...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

"Y" Mount...

Our children went with my sister, Auntie Carrie, this past Saturday to climb to the top of the " Y". I am adding some of the pictures. What you don't see is Bethany setting and then trying to jump up and out of the way of a falling rock from further above. Luckily, Beth was able to move enough to receive only minor scratches to her right flank (side) of her back and along the side of her right arm. I guess she sat back down and started to cry lightly when someone realized she had actually made contact with the rock.

Such a blessing of protection was felt by our whole family. Had she not be able to move even that little bit, the rock would have hit her square in the back.

Eli decided to use this experience as a talk in Primary the following morning. We hear from other moms that he had all the little children listening. We all love a good story. Especially with happy endings.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Turning Eight...

It's a little sad. My last child turns eight this week. Bless her, she is super excited. This evening for Family Home Evening, we finished her 12th lesson in a series intended to help prepare a child (or an adult for that matter) for his or her baptism.

After 32 years I still have found memories of when I was baptized in Seattle. Would you believe that my dad found my baptismal dress and brought it down last week! No way, I had no idea it was even around. It will take some additional material to fit it to Tia. She is taller and fuller then the average kid. Must have been all that great breast milk.

Friday, October 17, 2008

A Quik Learning Moment...

In twenty minutes, I learned that the first American expedition to the North Pole was an accumulation of attempts over 16+ years. What was most interesting was that the leader, Robert Peary should not have received all the credit. One Matthew Henson, an African American should of received equal praise as he accompanied Peary on all of his attempts and possibly/actually made it to the pole about 45minutes before Peary.

But thanks to the Supreme Court ruling of 1896 which said it was legal for local governments to segregate, Henson received no accreditation except to be called the "manservant" of Peary.

It was not until 1944 that Mathew Henson was given recognition from the United States, the Navy, and in 2001 was posthumously awarded the National Geographic Society's Hubbard Medal which Peary received in 1909.

Apparently in 1908 a Dr. Cook claimed he reached the North Pole first. However, because Henson chose to learn the Inuit language and culture, he was able to speak to the two Inuit guides and they confirmed that Cook had not reached the North Pole.

I'm sure I could do more reading on this subject. Yet giving a few minutes, not hours, towards reading, I learned something I never knew. How exciting. I also liked the fact that I was warm in my home while reading about the bitter cold of Greenland and the Arctic Sea. A big thank you to the heros who created insulation.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

It's A Creek... No, It's A River... No, It's A Flood...

Last night Gove and I finished reading Federic Bastiat's article, "That Which Is Seen and That Which Is Not Seen." As is common for me, I did not understand on the first reading but there was one little section that caused me to think that it could be related to our current bailout of the financial problems here in America.

"There is only one difference between a bad economist and a good one: the bad economist confines himself to the visible effect; the good economist takes into account both the effect that can be seen and those effects that must be foreseen.

Yet this difference is tremendous; for it almost always happens that when the immediate consequence is favorable, the later consequences are disastrous, and vice versa. Whence it follows that the bad economist pursues a small present good that will be followed by a great evil to come, while the good economist pursues a great good to come, at the risk of a small present evil".

It seem like we will have a little peace at first, but what about the debt in the future. How long do we keep passing our national debt to our children, who will follow our example and pass the burden on to our grandchildren? I have much to learn about this. It almost seems to heavy. Yet I have to keep trying to understand and learn from the experiences.

The story of the little boy who saves Holland when he sticks his finger in a hole in the dike makes me think of this type of fix. Taxes, taxes, taxes. That's another thing Bastiat spoke about. I think the colloquium will be interesting this week.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Fall Cleanup...

I think we better pull out the rest of the garden tomorrow as the nights have started to frost and what is left of the tomatoes have no chance at survival now. Then I think we better finish planting the 300 bulbs we have, well now it's less, more like 250. I talked with Beth this evening about moving the squash garden down below the house next spring and let those creeping buggers climb the lesser evil of three steep hills.

My youngest turns 8 next week. Can we slow down the days? No I guess not. I do appreciate each 24 hour cycle more so. then in my past. It helps to be giving thanks throughout the day. She's all excited for her upcoming baptism the first of November.

I was wondering if governmental moral decline has increased because or in relation to the breakdown of the family farms. It seems to be in my mind that the 70's had a lot of closure of farms. I asked someone else and he thought the 80's as well.

Thomas Jefferson said that the moral value of farming, is linked to political order. At a most basic level, farmers literally tied as they are to the land and mainly dependent upon their own labor are natural conservatives who resist political fad and fashion, and who value freedom and self-determination, the virtues most conducive to political independence and freedom...

I remember these qualities in my grandparents who where dairy farmers in Minnesota from 1941-early 1980's. I don't know the answer but I think the enticements of the Industrial Era; move from the farm, work less, make more, spend more must have been alluring. I believe it's called consumerism or materialism, or how about this this word I just made up; luxuryism.

I like this question facing me today: "How can the values of self-reliance, independence, freedom, and a tragic recognition of the limits nature imposes on human will and desire-virtues that once were nurtured in the daily struggle to grow food and that formed the bedrock of republican government-survive the centrifugal forces of consumer hedonism, therapeutic individualism, and mass-produced consensus of taste and opinion, not to mention the failure of our schools to teach the traditions of Western democracy?

Just thoughts without answers at this point for me. I guess it's food for my thoughts to chew on.

See ya later...

Friday, October 10, 2008

Fall Harvesting Thanks To Georgics...

Words of praise were spoken by our children (and cousins) yesterday as they began to gather in the fall harvest. Thanks to their hard labor in the spring, the bounteous produce were highly prized by the owners.

Here was the perfect opening to share what I had just finished reading over the last 2 days. The Greek Georgic Tradition and The Founders.

I knew that georgics has something to do with farming, and although we live in a city, I am slowly progressing in turning our property into a very small family hobby farm (think of "farming" in the loosest of terms). Now I know a little more about the influence of georgics upon our nation and our government.

Agrarianism is most often confused with pastoral ideas at the expense of georgic ideas.
Pastoral thought is of a pleasant landscape, natural beauty, harmony, and a fitting scene for love, art, and leisure. Imagine the idealistic shepherd laying under a tree, playing upon his pipe a lovely tune.

Georgics on the other hand sees nature as a collection of forces attacking humanity and the land and thus requiring hard work (labor) to create order and virtue in order to keep the forces of disorder at bay. Think of the practical farmer, plowing under the scorching sun watching the gathering of cumulonimbus clouds.

We know all about the forces of disorder. Just take a look at our hillsides and sinking lawn.

Back when Isaiah was prophet for Israel in Jerusalem, Hesiod was writing about georgic ways in Greece. Here are some quotes made by him; taken from the article I was reading: "The immortals decreed that man must sweat/to attain virtue" "for mortals order is best, disorder is worst", "...Hunger and the idling man are bosom friends...If you work, you will be dearer to immortals/mortals; they both loathe the indolent." oh I like this little quote too; "barns are not filled by those who postpone".

I read in the introduction for Virgil's Georgics prepared by the Great Books series that he wrote this poem to encourage soldiers returning from war to seek value in middling hoplite farming.

Farming became fashionable in the 1700's here in America. I wonder if it became "fashionable" because you could use slaves to help? Just I thought I'm not sure if that is right.

The author says what I believe to be true when he said,"Peace, prosperity, and political stability do not occur naturally; rather, they must be actively created out of human labor, skill, and VIRTUE".

This is just a little thought that is beginning to grow in my mind. I will need to study more in regards to the influence of georgics upon our government. I'm currently reading The Roots of American Order, maybe I will find direction there.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Worthwhile Thinking...

C.S. Lewis said, in The Abolition Of Man, "It is not a theory they (authors of a textbook for British schools) put into his (the child's) mind, but an assumption, which ten years hence, its origin forgotten and it's presence unconscious, will condition him to take one side in a controversy which he has never recognized as a controversy at all. The Authors themselves, I suspect, hardly know what they are doing to the boy, and he cannot know what is being done to him."

This statement has me thinking about the hot issue in California right now with Proposition 8. I finally woke up to think about the consequences that will come out of California if not passed because of a video regarding the Parker Family in Massachusetts.

I believe this is a prime example of what Lewis is talking about. Plant the seeds of tolerance and this "feels o.k." Then as adults they are more easily swayed to accept immoral and unvirtuous principles.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

At Conference Time, at conference time...

If I'm not mistaken, there is a Primary song our children have sung that includes the words used in this mornings title. I appreciate conference of yesterday even more this morning. You see it goes something like this...

About 9:00pm last night, two of our three children came down with the stomach flu. Since we had only listened to conference hours earlier, I was able to be thankful and accept that I would be up during the night. I was up a few times. The real test of my faith came at 4:00am when I heard the third child "tossing her groceries" into the sink. Thank goodness her dinner was digested.

We were reminded yesterday to express greater thanks and gratitude in our prayers. At 5:00am I truly was and still am thankful for this blessing of having my children each sick at about the same time. It's wonderful because I can pretty much figure that they will recover at about the same time. I think the kids see this as individual trials at the moment, yet Eli agreed it is a blessing even if he does not like throwing up.

So I've been up and am ready and looking forward to a quite conference meeting this morning. I feel excited and willing to be corrected and edified in the process.

Oh, my other thought of thankfulness as I was running to Bethany this morning is that I was given the opportunity to serve my children and I am thankful to be doing so with a happy and grateful heart. There are times I have not felt so appreciative of an illness.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

That's Got To Hurt...

We took our children to the Shangri-La Chinese Acrobatic Show at BYU last night. Beth kept asking, "when is it going to start?" Mattia said she was bored waiting for it to begin. Mom said,"fine, I'll take you home and bring back one of your cousins."

And then the show began and the first thing I hear from Mattia is,"wow I'm so glad you didn't take me home mom." And Beth,"oh I love this mom, thanks."

Patience, it's one of those tools of lifelong learning. It's a big one that I'm learning too so I can't get upset with the girls.

The acrobatics were lively and entertaining. One little girl (she sure liked young) was incredible at contorting her body. Talk about flexibility. I wonder if she will end up with arthritis early in life?

I found this on youtube of one of the acts the young men did:

He Found The Piano Man...

Gove did it! After 11 years and three moves across the United States of America, Gove located Mr. Stosich, The Piano Man of Utah.

The last time Howard saw our piano, we had won a bid at a local thrift store and brought home an out of tune 100 plus years old upright grand piano. Sadly, our piano has been out of tune for over 7 years.

But not anymore. We went heavy into repairs this time and it sounds lovely and actually better then eleven years ago because we had the hammers adjusted, pegs tightened, strings replaced. I added tung oil to the outside and now we almost have a new piano.

I can recommend Howard because he loves what he is doing and frankly I don't think he charges enough for the amount of time he sends with your piano.

If you live along I-15 Howard may be willing to care for your piano too. Just send me a comment and I'll get you his number.

Alright, Gove says I ought to put his number here. I might lose it someday. 554-5200.

Friday, October 3, 2008

Interested In Starting A Colloquium?...

We have been asked on a few occasions how to start a colloquium group. After running the Provo Area Leadership Mentoring Society (PALMS) for the past year, I think I might have some suggestions that could be helpful to anyone wanting to establish such a group but really does not know where to begin. These are ideas not necessarily given in order of importance.

The word colloquium was alien to my brain until two years ago. It took me a while to wrap my tongue around this word. Here is a link to hear the word and a general definition is below.
n 1: an academic meeting or seminar usually led by a different
lecturer and on a different topic at each meeting
2: an address to an academic meeting or seminar
[also: colloquia (pl)]
After our first month, we published guidelines for the group. You may want to come up with some ideas of general respect that should be offered by all in attendance.

Next I will list the things we do that seems to help our group.

1. Create a schedule on-line. I think it helps to look somewhat professional. See our PALMS site.

2. Advertising is key to getting people to come. We started with our homeschool community websites and asked people to share the information. I think the library is a great place to post your announcement also.

We attended a small colloquium for about a year prior to starting our own. It was easier to start ours from the experience we had there. You may not be able to go to another group so be patient with yourself and learn as you go along.
One thing we really wanted to provide was an environment that would allow both mom and dad to attend, to read together and share learning together.

3. We provide two babysitters. At this point we don't ask for any money. The time may come and I think everyone who attends would be willing to give a dollar or two.

4. We like to provide something to eat. My husband is the bread maker in our family. We provide fresh whole wheat bread, and water to drink. I think it would be fun to have popcorn. You can ask members to bring something, we try to keep this easy for everyone who comes.

5. The children who come (10 is average), stay down stairs. They need to be far enough away to not disturb the meeting with their laughter and fun. At first I allowed movies to be played. We don't do that anymore since the running time is about 70 minutes the babysitters can actually play with the kids, do crafts that I leave for them and read lots of books during our meeting time.

6. We meet every week for one hour of actual discussion time. Often families stay up to 30 minutes later talking about life which helps with fellowshipping. I would love to have other adults who are seeking greater self directed learning who do not homeschool but right now everyone who is attending also happens to be educating their children at home.

7. Where to hold your colloquium is important. Your home, someone else's, the library, a college campus. You want to provide comfort not crampedness, and always have fresh air. A hot room leads to sleepiness.

8. Our reading list is strongly influenced by the 5 Pillar Program at George Wythe University. Almost all of us who currently attend (our average is 12 people) have a desire to read classical works of literature. We think this is a good place to start and it's your group so you can decide where you want to go with it anyway.

9. I and my husband decided the first quarter readings. Once we saw the make up of the group we now ask for suggestions for books. Often there is a lot I end up filling in and I turn to the list from the 5 pillars to help me.

10. One week each month we hold a government discussion: currently we are doing the Federalist and Anti-federalist Papers. One week is an article of some sort. The other two weeks are books for the most part. One book is small the other larger. But really you need to read over our schedule to see the flow of things.
We do did not meet during December last year but we will meet the first to week this December. We want to finish the Federalist papers in January. During the past summer we meet twice a month.

11. Guest speakers are a fun way to invite others to attend for the evening. We have at lest one guest lecturer each quarter. This quarter it will be two because someone is available who has a busy schedule and I don't want to pass her by. We have hosted 40+ people at a given lecture in our home. We try to provide speakers who will meet the needs of the homeschool community and or leadership development.

12. We provide everyone with the opportunity to be the facilitator for an evenings discussion. The key we use to get people to do this is a fresh loaf of bread to take home. That probably helped in the beginning but now everyone realizes that being the leader of a colloquium discussion is good experience even when you have to come out of your comfort zone.

13. Strive to develop your listening skills. Be in the present moment listening to who is talking. Don't think about what you want to say next just listen and feel. Boy this is a hard one for me but I think it's worth the development to let everyone know that they are important and what they say is valuable even if I don't understand it all.

I like hosting this colloquium in our home because it means we have to be ready every week. It's not always easy. But then again seeking and gaining knowledge is not intended as a simple procedure either. After a year of meeting on a regular bases I find that I like these people. I wasn't sure in the beginning.

I highly encourage you to take the first steps to create a colloquium in your neighborhood. Maybe you start with your church group and your immediate neighbors. However, if you build it and people come, then you will inspire someone else to try and that's a good thing.

My two cents for what it's worth...

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Can We Have Your Autograph...

On Sunday, I prepared my family for our Tuesday night outing by reading the Lambs version of Pericles. Since the cousins are visiting they too listened. Boy was that a good idea. About two hours before the show I decided to take the older cousins because the youngest had the stomach flu and the mom decided to change her plans.

How wonderful for the kids to go to BYU's Young Company performance of Shakespeare's "Pericles". Prior to the show, the actors come out and mingle with the audience. It was real fun to watch the children respond when the actors said who they were portraying. "Oh your evil." "Why do women cause all the death?" "We like you." "Wow you look to young to be old."
Anyway you get the point I hope.
Here are some pictures.
Oh I can't forget. Afterward the kids started asking for autographs. Where did they get that from I don't know. But they sure were excited to have Pericles sign his name.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Got Declaration of Independence...

Have you read the Declaration of Independence lately? Stop now and do it.

I read it today taking the time to look up many words to understand the meaning clearly and I found this document beautiful in describing why the Americans must breakaway from Britain. Jefferson states about 26 reasons. I now want to find an example for each breach listed which might be harder. I typed in "annotated declaration of independence" but I'm having a hard time finding complete notes for each point.

Did I Really Mean That?...

A few blog entries ago I said something about the greatness of womanhood. I received a comment that has had me thinking. Did I mean greatness? It certainly sounded good when I said it.

This morning I had a sudden thought that I might mean goodness of womanhood and that I should seek out the origin of both words, greatness and goodness.My search didn't turn up something profound which I was hoping for.

I must add a little of Shakespeare's Twelfth Night. This is Malvalio talking to Fabian.

"...but be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon 'em".

Our individual potentials are certainly understood by a loving Heavenly Father. I occasionally get a quick peek into my potential and it's so quick that I often miss it's significance. The potential to become all that God sees in me and in all of mankind is really amazing. I guess I think it's pretty darn great. Wow, such potential to become more then I am now. I don't feel that I have been utilizing all the gifts and talents that have been given me. To see this fact about myself and now to desire improvement that will be lifelong sure does give me hope.

I would relate this greatness of becoming who I am potentially able to be with Elder Robert D. Hales talk given at Education Week this year. It's entitled, "The Journey of Life Long Learning"
I've actually already posted about this talk so you will need to read and learn for yourself.

I also appreciated the September visiting teaching message which spoke to me upon these same lines.

“A woman’s richest rewards will come as she rises to fulfill her destiny as a devoted daughter of God. To all faithful Saints He has promised thrones, kingdoms, principalities, glory, immortality, and eternal lives. (See Rom. 2:7; D&C 75:5; 128:12, 23; 132:19.) That is the potential for women in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. It is exalting, everlasting, and divine” (“Woman—Of Infinite Worth,” Ensign, Nov. 1989, 22).

“Oh, that every girl and woman would have a testimony of her potential for eternal motherhood. … Female roles did not begin on earth, and they do not end here. A woman who treasures motherhood on earth will treasure motherhood in the world to come, and ‘where [her] treasure is, there will [her] heart be also’ (Matthew 6:21). By developing a mother heart, each girl and woman prepares for her divine, eternal mission of motherhood” (“A ‘Mother Heart,’ ” Liahona and Ensign, May 2004, 76).

Well, there is so many wonderful learning experiences ahead of me and my children. Life is full of greatness in blessings, and trials. Man is that he might have joy. I'm just beginning to appreciate joy for the sake of joy and the value joy holds in my life.

Ultimately, spiritual greatness is what I really hope to be seeking. Greatness comes by being humble, meek and submissive to the will of God in my life. Studying my central cannon and teachings of religious leaders.

Again I feel excited for this lifelong adventure.