Saturday, January 31, 2009

Finally, A Conversation Between Me, Myself and I...

Hi there.
Where have you bean?
Oh, I've been near, just not here.
Why do you suppose?
I'm really not sure. I have found myself in a mood of not writing or feeling like reading for the most part. It's odd.

That's really odd. Are you o.k.?
I think I'm pretty o.k. I decided to not take the American History class earlier this month.
Really? You were so excited reading and annotating. What gives?
I really was excited, but decided I needed to take care of my health. I find myself getting out of control with eating and feeling helpless. Frankly I was scared, and came to see that I did not need added stress at this time. I'm listening to John Adams still and would like to read all the books for the class even if I'm not involved.
What about your health? Are you going to schedule a physical or something like that?
You know, I turn 44 next month. It's not that I'm going to be 44 that bothers me, it's the fact that I'll be 45 next! And I don't want to become 45 huffing and puffing my way through another year of life. So I got active and put the fear to the side.
What did you do!
I decided to acquire a health adviser/coach. I'm just into my second week with Dan of Total Health and Fitness. I decided to take this step because my sister Carrie has been attending and having great success. Even with her weight loss, I was pretty unsure if I could even do this. It's been hard to figure out how to get over feeling cruddy in the morning but I think my body is coming around. I eat 7 small meals throughout the day and my scale says I've lost 9 pounds now. I believe I am coming to a time in my life when I am really ready and willing to make changes to be healthy and fit again. My self image has been in the dumps for many years. I feel like I have left myself at the side of the road and forgot about me, that I need caring for and then I can care for my family with health and strength and might even encourage our family into better health too.
Wow that sounds like a big step for you.
This really is a huge step of confidence for me. I have decided to post my beginning pictures of myself here for all of you to see and say ouch to. You know, I am so often surprised by how I look right now. I have started to imagine what I can look like again later this year with time, patience, and effort. I think I will post my progress every four weeks or ten pounds lost.
What else is happening these days in your life?
Well lets kids are doing well. We helped them study about the honey bee who's Latin name is Apis Millifera. Beth (with help of her entire family) submitted an essay for a contest with the Utah Beekeepers Association. They are also taking an art class from a BYU student. They seem to like this. Gove informed me last night that his department wants to nominate him for teacher of the year. We had retaining wall made with huge boulders added to the south and west side of the hills. We will have a nice flat landing for fruit trees, grapes, a fire pit and wonderful wild flowers all summer long. I can see the future beauty of it all.
It sounds like your planning for your gardening...
Well it's more about helping the insects who help with pollination. We learned about neonicotinoids which are a group of pesticides made by Bayer. There appears to be a link. I'm going to add the youtubes below. We are planning to make a flier and distribute wild flower seeds to our neighbors and encourage the abstinence of pesticide use. We hope to develop a variety of flower gardens to help support the nutrition of our local honey bee populations. We are even going to win or buy a hive this spring too.
Thanks for talking with me. It's always nice to hear about your life. Maybe next time you can share more about your feelings.


Doug Mellor said...

Good luck on your fitness goals -- it's hard to fit it all in, but I'm sure you'll do fine. And for the record, you really do look good now -- just like any other busy mom!

Christina said...

Ack! I guess my dad was using my computer this weekend and signed in to his Google account, and I accidentally posted a comment posing as him.

So that comment above? Not some crazy weirdo -- just me.

Nickie said...

It's good to know the above was you! I was wondering who in the world is so nice yet I don't know the guy. Now it's a gal and I know you!

Thank you for your kind words.