Thursday, May 26, 2011

I dislike unknown feelings

I have a feeling that I need to do something. I can't put my finger on it. I felt a couple of nights ago that I need to learn more about government. But I'm not sure that is what I feel right now. I feel like I need to go and do... something.

I've prayed about it this morning but no comfort for the feeling. It feels like tension in a way but not stress. Perhaps this is a sense of a need to do or MAYBE it's more like a need to become. Be come what?, I ask myself.

I felt so uneasy with President Obama saying to Israel that they should have  borders similar to the 1960's. But I don't know why I feel uneasy about this. I feel emotional concerns for my country but I can't pinpoint what it is and I'm more sure that I don't even know myself because I haven't learned it yet.

There it is again! That negative thought " How can I do this when I don't have enough time." Ugh, I don't like having this feeling, so I'm going to get active with YASA stuff and see if it goes away. No, I don't want it to go away necessarily but rather if I can feel guided in some direction to take with it.
“Don't say you don't have enough time. 
You have exactly the same number of hours per day that were given to Helen Keller, Pasteur, Michaelangelo, Mother Teresa, Leonardo da Vinci, Thomas Jefferson, and Albert Einstein.”

H. Jackson Brown, Jr. 

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Happy 12th Birthday...

 Here is the birthday girl on her 12th birthday which was celebrated yesterday. She and her mom got up at 5am and went to the Provo temple to do baptisms with the young women who happen to attend every Tuesday morning. It was wonderful to sit with my oldest daughter, second child, and talk about her growth and development as a daughter of God. We talked about rose buds opening into beautiful roses and how our journey from girlhood into womanhood can be related to the maturing of a rose bud into a rose flower. We hugged and held hands and so many people smiled and welcomed     us because we were sitting at the entrance, waiting for the other girls to arrive.

My Tribute to Beth goes something like this. I am at times overwhelmed by the determination of this girl. She awakes herself about 6am showers, practices the piano, reads her scriptures. She already read the Book of Mormon this year and is working on the Doctrines and Covenants currently. She feeds her animals and loves to spend every spare minute in reading. And if that isn't enough, she is teaching herself Latin. I administered her first exam through the Christian Latina program and learned about derivatives from her.          It was fun to find English words that originated in Latin.

Here's what's overwhelming to me. She isn't asked to do these things. She does it herself and has for many months now. Sometimes I worry she is going to be a major type A perfectionist and possibly have a hard time living with herself.  I hope I can offer wise counsel though I feel completely inadequate for the greatness of the responsibility. I know, let the holy spirit guide...

I look at her and my other children and wonder who they really are or are to become potentially speaking. Beth is creative in writing and has enjoyed the idea of being a veterinarian or some form of an animal keeper since she was able to walk comfortably through the bayou when we lived in New Orleans. I often wonder what is going on in that mind of hers. Usually it is her imagination creating a story.

Happy Birthday Bethany! Your family loves you.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Third Tuesday...It's time for city council...let the balls bounce

Guess whose late to the city council meeting tonight?  I am! Not the council members for a change.

Pam Stowe is the city employee of the month for Provo! Way to go Pam. Sounds like you have a busy job getting a variety of things licensed in the city.

Public Comment time: 

Charles walked up and asked how many of the council members rode thjeir bikes to work today. Just one. Sterling Beck.
Ms. Bean is against being charged if she and other citizens choose to not use the recycling bins. If you don't recycle, your going to be fined in some way with a regular monthly fee.

It's a quite night. It's Beth's birthday today.

Consent Agenda:
-Another budget retreat is planned for this Thursday. Changes to calendar.
-Getting Ready for the Convention Center: An Action Plan for Downtown: Street Lighting, Signage, Flower Baskets,
-City wants to sell two acres.
-Facade Grant Program hasn't been used well enough and changes need to be made part of the downtown area issue.

Hot dog, the city council meeting finished in less then 50 minutes to night! Lets go home.

See ya, wouldn't want to be ya.
"It was the small Tolstoy's Diary, I casually took it down from the shelf and opened it at random. My eyes fell on the following words: "To deceive oneself is worse than to deceive others." These harsh words pierced me to the core...."
He continues to say, "Tolstoy provided the staff of life on which I nurtured my soul. Tolstoy said that one should not deceive oneself and that the voice of conscience is the voice of God. I determined to live according to these ideas."

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Teen Volunteer Board

I forced my son to attending the Provo Library Teen Volunteer program last week. Force is probably the right word here. He said maybe and I said, "yes, you are going and I think you'll like it." It was one of those say go be dos I've been blogging about at

Not only did he like it, Beth was able to attend and they helped move boxes for an upcoming event, ate candy (probably the clincher for Eli) and played some games. Sadly it was the last meeting until September but I figure it was a good way to introduce them. I think Beth will love this opportunity to hear more about books. Eli could use some friends who are male and like to read so I will have to see what happens this fall. I realized this is a great experience to add to their resume of life. Spending the next years volunteering at the local library. It's a good idea after all. I'm thankful to have listened to the prompting to say yes.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Hard at work...

500 tiles and 11 hours later, we have finally finished tiling for the day. There were times when I wasn't much help with three great kids to do the work of a demanding dad who knows how to work construction and expects that tools be handed in the proper fashion, that you know what he wants before he asks for it.  While I wasn't needed, I was nonetheless busy with yard work. I have the sunburn to show for it too. And now the family is watching our new favorite movie, Megamind.
I was down loading pictures from my camera tonight and I see I'm way behind in posting activities. I think I'll just add some shots here but with now explanations.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

The ball begins to bounce...

May 3rd City Council

What's the deal? I'm in my seat but there isn't a city council to begin the meeting. Oh, now they come just 20 minutes late. I wonder what was going on??? Fighting maybe. It has happened in the near past.

Did you know that May is National Community Action Month?  I just learned this because I'm setting next to the director of the local Community Action Food Bank. The mayor is going to announce a proclamation.

We are now trying to watch a youtube with Gunnar Legas a local boy who has a major throwing arm and he just gave the opening prayer. This kid looks like he's going to be the next Jimmer of football.

-Approving of April's minutes.

-Here comes the proclamation!  Community Action started in 1964. Myla, the director said she sure does appreciate the scouts food drive.
-Public Comment Time:  I hope someone with a crazy idea gets up. It will make the evening so more exciting if not humorous...
-Laura is up expressing concern that she saw a youth driver on Center St. texting while driving over the via duct.
-Diane is concerned that at today's work session she heard the council considering changing how they store data. Maybe less paper minutes and rely on recorded material as the permanent record. She is concerned that with changes in technology these electronic data will be lost at some point in the future.
-Lindsey is concerned with issues related to the upcoming election. He has heard a rumor that there is a council member/s who might be considering running again because of the health benefits, and other things.
-Consent Agenda:
-Items one and two automatically approved.
-Item 3 property on the east side. passes
-Item 4 tentative budget presented by Mayor Curtis. Budget starts July 1st through June 30th of 2012. The mayor said they held 6 budget retreats to work on this budget. I wonder if they had not had the retreats if the balancing of the budget might have occurred sooner. (Just teasing) Revenues have bumped up a little bit he says. A citizen financial committee was also involved. Last year there was a cut of over 5 billion which has helped to restore some benefits to city government employees with this new budget. $153,726,464 is the proposed budget and the final adoption is June 29th. There's a lot of thank youing going on right now. Passed
The proposed budget is available to the public at the city web site, the library, and else where. June 7th and 14th is public hearing unless some other thing comes up.

-Item 5 This is dealing with the road up near Seven Peaks. The Master Plan guy is saying it is right to keep the road on the plan. Lets see, I closed my computer a good 20 minutes ago. The guy is going on in a monotone voice. But now council member Cynthia Dayton is asking questions and here is what I think is a sudden insight of probable nonsense; I think she is now thinking of running after all and she is going to push to have this road stop. She is going at the cost and the oddness of forming a road for bikes. She has driven her car during high traffic times and has had no speed interruptions. She is planning something. It's just a gut feeling but there is something brewing.
 (my back has been injured for a few days and these chairs are not helping so I may leave soon)

Sunday, May 1, 2011

100 and 27

I should make you guess what the 100 and 27 mean. But I am getting hungry after a day of fasting and will be eating shortly.

So to the point!

100 is the number of fat pounds my good husband has lost since a time when we lived in New Orleans. He told me this good news this morning. Way to go Gove. I asked him to wear his new slacks and just a white dress shirt to church so that people could see the change. He told me after church that someone asked if he was sick. Nope. Just exercising, weight training and eating much better.

Oh, and the 27 is my fat loss this year. After gaining 30 last year, after having lost 40 the previous year. Feels good. I love lifting weights and seeing the muscle form. It reminds me of my days in the army when I was a lean mean fighting machine.  Gag.....