Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Link to the BYU-Idaho Learning Model

http://www2.byui.edu/LearningModel/src/default.htm

This is so interesting. How neat that BUYI has taken this approach to learning. I look forward to learning more and using the process in my own life.

The Three Processes are:
Prepare
Teach one another
Ponder/Prove

The Five Principles are:
Exercise faith
Learn by the Holy Ghost
Lay hold upon the word of God
Act for themselves
Love, Serve, Teach one another




Vanguard Mentors: April Mentor Meeting - Changes for next year

Vanguard Mentors: April Mentor Meeting - Changes for next year:  Our April mentor meeting centered on the vision for Vanguard next year.  I asked parents to read a speech by Terry Warner titled "Th...

Monday, May 20, 2013

Starting a Vanguard Youth Group in Provo?


Dear Moms, Dads, and Youth,
I am sending out feelers for parents and youth who are looking/desiring/willing/feeling like they need something different for their education.
I have been having lots of thoughts/feelings and it wasn't until an acquaintance from SL area mentioned Vanguard Youth and I looked into the idea that my feelings of concern and the heavy weight of the matter started to be replaced with peace.
I believe I have been guided to what I and my youth need for our educational pursuits this year and into the next. As I plan to learn more and seek guidance from Mary and Karen (the creators of Vanguard) I realized that I should see if there are other parents/youth interested and would also like to learn more.
I admit there is a lot I don't see in my mind clearly so I may not be able to answer your questions right now. I just want others to know about this opportunity for growth, the use of agency and principle-based education with a strong Christian and LDS foundation.
There are four areas of education: Leadership Academy (morality/government/freedom), Eureka (math/science), Geo-Quest (geography/history), and Imaginative Arts (arts/imaginative literature)
WHAT I LIKE about this approach are the three levels of depth to learning. The youth ages 12-18 all start with Apprentice level work. And then they can decided if they want to do the Journeyman and or Master level work each week. There are some incentives and of course age and maturity play a part too.
At the end of this message I will include links to the Vanguard blog site, newsletters, and other items I thought helpful in trying to understand this approach to learning.
I live in Provo and have a large community room in which to hold the classes. So I am looking for families who can come to Provo. This isn't something I can do by myself on a large scale. I will need other parents who feel like minded.
BTY, the newsletter link below was helpful in creating an image in my mind of how Vanguard runs.
If you want to talk about this call me at 801-850-6554 or email me at veronnicaallen@gmail.com

Vanguard Mentors Blog Sitehttp://vanguardmentors.blogspot.com/
Books to Capture the Vision (I have not stated to read these yet) http://vanguardmentors.blogspot.com/2012/07/books-to-capture-vision.html
Founder's Notes, start up info and great resources: http://vanguardnotes.blogspot.com/p/start-up-info.html
Thank you –

Our Deepest Fear
By Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.
We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us;
It's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we're liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

"For nearly six thousand years, God has held you in reserve to make your appearance in the final days before the Second Coming of the Lord. Every previous gospel dispensation has drifted into apostasy,
 but ours will not...
 God has saved for the final inning some of his strongest children, who will help bear off the Kingdom triumphantly. And that is where you come in, for you are the generation that must be prepared to meet your God.
All through the ages the prophets have looked down through the corridors of time to our day. Billions of the deceased and those yet to be born have their eyes on us.
 Make no mistake about it—you are a marked generation. There has never been more expected of the faithful in such a short period of time as there is of us..."
-Ezra Taft Benson "In His Steps" 1979

Sunday, May 19, 2013

"For nearly six thousand years, God has held you in reserve to make your appearance in the final days before the Second Coming of the Lord. Every previous gospel dispensation has drifted into apostasy,
 but ours will not...
 God has saved for the final inning some of his strongest children, who will help bear off the Kingdom triumphantly. And that is where you come in, for you are the generation that must be prepared to meet your God.
All through the ages the prophets have looked down through the corridors of time to our day. Billions of the deceased and those yet to be born have their eyes on us.
 Make no mistake about it—you are a marked generation. There has never been more expected of the faithful in such a short period of time as there is of us..."
-Ezra Taft Benson "In His Steps" 1979
The Invitation
By Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for,
And if you dare to dream of meeting
Your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
For love, for your dream,
For the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,
If you have been opened by life's betrayals,
Or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain,
Mine or your own,
Without moving
To hide it or fade it or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy,
Mine or your own,
If you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
Without cautioning us to be careful, realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself,
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.
I want to know if you can be faithless and therefore be trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty
Even when it is not pretty every day,
And if you can source your own life
From its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure,
Yours and mine,
And still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"Yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair,
Weary and bruised to the bone,
And do what needs to be done for the children.
It doesn't interest me who you are, how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
In the center of the fire with me
And not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
From the inside
When all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone
With yourself,
And if you truly like the company you keep
In the empty moments.

Note:
For more on the origin and writer of the inspiring poem, click here. For a number of other highly inspirational poems, click here.
Our Deepest Fear
By Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.
We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us;
It's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we're liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

Note:
This inspiring quote on our deepest fear is taken from Marianne Williamson's inspiring book A Return to Love. Though often quoted as part of Nelson Mandela's moving inaugural speech, "Our Deepest Fear" does not appear in the speech. Marianne Williamson herself has commented on this mistaken attribution. For Marianne's website, click here. For other highly inspiring poems, click here.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Word of the day...

Yesterday, at about 3 o'clock, I had a sudden need to leave the home and go to the temple. So I listened. Changed my clothes. And went. I took refuge within the walls of initiatory. As I waited my turn to serve, I decided to read D&C section 88. I didn't get to far before my name was called but I did get far enough to wonder about the joy I am experiencing in my life. I am referring to verse 32. I felt this important for me to remember so I asked for paper and pencil...and it was given to me. :)

Here is the quote:  "...they shall return again to their own place, to enjoy that which they are willing to receive, because they were not willing to enjoy that which they might have received."

Willing is the word of the day for me here in this verse.

Am I willing to receive? I'm pretty confident that I have pushed the possibility of greater happiness away from me at times. What am I willing to receive? Am I
willing to receive something better? Does better come with more responsibility? Or does it come with more willingness to surrender my will to God? "For what does it profit a man if a gift is bestowed upon him, and he receive not the gift? Behold, he rejoices not in that which is given unto him, neither rejoices in him who is the giver of the gift."

Food for thought...not weight gain...unless it's brain gain.

For me today...I share with you...

I Am Not Fighting

I have ceased fighting anything or anyone- even food. For by this time sanity has returned. I can now react sanely and normally, and I find that this has happened almost automatically. I see that this new attitude toward food is really a gift of God.

This is the miracle of it. I am not fighting it, neither am I avoiding temptation. I have not even sworn off. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for me. I am neither cocky nor am I afraid.

This is how I react- so long as I keep in fit spiritual condition.


I took a tiny bit of liberty to fit this thought from As Bill Sees It to work for my life. The original is found on page 121 of A.B.S.I.

Here is a pdf link which appears to be the whole As Bill Sees It book: http://upperpeninsulaoa.com/wp-content/uploads/file/AsBillSeesIt.pdf

Sunday, May 5, 2013


"As we draw near to God, He will draw near to us. And day by day, the hope of God’s light will grow within us, 'brighter and brighter until the perfect day.'"
—Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "The Hope of God's Light"

Do I need to stop isolating myself?

I realized this past Friday that it has been about one year since I walked into the LDS 12 Step Program, sat down. I wondered what in the world was I going to do, who could I talk to, where could I turn for peace? And after the meeting was over, God sent me an answer in the form of a woman who called herself "Shelly". Shelly asked me if I was going to attend and I hesitated. I quickly yelled out in my mind "What can I do God?" and then I decided to just spell my beans and tell Shelly my pain. She listened, we walked out to her car and talked more and she listened, and about 30 minutes later the burden of having kept silent for so long was lifted and I felt hope once again.

Months passed and then God lead me to a new 12 Step program where I have been for the past eight months. It still  surprises me that though I am not an alcoholic, I can related to how an alcoholic feels in the reading of A.A. One of the things you learn quickly in a 12 step environment is the need to trust in a higher power and to surrender your will to that higher power. It's a learning, growing, developing encounter for me with set backs on occasion. At times it works wonderfully and I have a happy, hopeful, fun, and joyous day. Other days it's a battle to get all that life requires of me accomplished and I feel stressed, agitated, and unhappy. It's during those 'other days' that I see how much God, my higher power, needs me to surrender my will over to him. I may still need to do all of the daily stuff but as I give my desires over to God to take care of I see my day go differently, smoothly, without me getting upset or agitated just because I have to leave the home once more to meet an appointment.

Did you know that I'm a homebody type of person? I have for the longest time thought of that as being a good quality. That is, I thought so until last Thursdays evening while attending a 12 step meeting. We were reading about the subject of love from a wonderful little book called As Bill Sees It. Bill was a co-founder of A.A. Here is the massage that found the bulls-eye of my heart.


 "Almost without exception, alcoholics (any addicts) are tortured by loneliness. Even before our (addiction) got bad and people began to cut us off, nearly all of us suffered the feeling that we didn't quite belong. Either we were shy,...or we were noisy...constantly craving attention and companionship, but rarely getting it. There was always that mysterious barrier we could neither surmount nor understand....we were finally struck down and left in terrified isolation."

I heard and read this statement and something inside of me came to live with the awakening of this fact about myself. Now, I am currently working Step 7 but I keep Step 6 open for any opportunity I may have to clearly see and name one of my many character defects. Here was my 5th (yes I have lots more but I am being very specific with examples and direct names and even with determining if this is a defect I am ready or willing to give up and surrender over to God.) My defect: Isolating Myself From Others! 

Ouch ouch ouch!!!

I have been doing this for many many years let me tell you! Rats! rats! rats! Now I know this and kind of see it clearly. I have alienated myself from my family, in-laws, good old friendships, and keep myself from developing deep friendships now. I also see that since accepting this current 12 Step Program, I have become even more isolating! 

 My addiction involves food. So whenever there has been a dinner or potluck over the past 8 months I don't go. At first it was to help protect myself from slipping and going into some terrible sugar induced binge but now it's just easier to stay away and not have to talk or mingle.
When I understood this two days ago I felt frustrated and even annoyed to realize this and almost wished I could hide from it. Now I wish more to heal and learn and make some corrections according to what my Higher Power wants me to do.

Today I know I need to plan and attend church/social functions and bring my own food or take enough for me and enough to serve others. I just hate having to say this right now. It is like a little battle in my head to want to stay at home and not be seen. URGH!  However, I want to improve. I need not go back into my cave. I want the light of friends and family...my siblings. But will they want me??? Well, all I can do is try. And again this says to me to surrender to God my will and His Will  will open the doors as I trust in His time and not mine.

O.K. I think this is what I was needing to type for myself today. Do you suffer too? Have you grown out of isolating yourself? How did you go about doing that? I can hear it already :) One day at a time and with Serenity Prayer. Oh, I can also hear the 12 steps calling out to be followed, worked, and tried, again and again and again.

Yes! I do need to stop isolating. It's so big. God grant me the serenity to accept this change, to turn my will over to Thee, Help me to live just for today with Thy love and Thy grace...amen