Sunday, October 20, 2013


10 days ago I recommitted to God that I would surrender my will and return to the 12 Steps found through a compulsive eaters program.  Why? Why would I go back to weighing, measuring, calling others, committing a daily meal plan, having a sponsor?  Simple. Sanity.

Sanity is why. 13 days ago I was leaving the Provo temple and as I looked into the mirror, I heard a voice in my head say, "you look so old and those calf muscles are huge!'   There I was with my voices returning. After the summer months were spent eating freely (without any candy--thank goodness), once again the voices finally returned. I gained 10 pounds back and I noticed the day before going to the temple that as I walked my bottom felt suddenly bigger. I think that was actually what allowed the voices back into my head.

I found a sponsor on Thursday October 10th and by Saturday evening, day 2 on program, I was feeling sanity again. I didn't have to ask myself what I was going to go eat. I didn't have to hear the thought that I should go eat candy/chocolate.  I didn't need to considered what I was going to eat in the car.  What can be more of a relief then not feeling the need to be insane?

This past Thursday morning I heard a voice say my hips were still big. But I quickly said no. My hips are going to be fine and they get me to where I need to be. I sent that voice packing and I looked in the mirror yesterday and indeed my hips look great.

I use to think that voices in my head were like my sub-conscience. I no longer think that. I believe the voices are influences from addicts who have died and are caught somehow as spirits still here on earth---it's the only way I can say it. It sounds odd to me yet I think there is some truth.  And whats interesting is that as soon as I surrendered back to my higher power which is God. I felt hope and ability and sanity that I can be at peace again and there isn't a need to be fighting against myself.

My experience tells me, testifies to me, that God really wants us to have sanity in our lives and any type of addiction will never be sane.

Just for today I'm giving my will to God and I see and I know that God is doing for me what I have never been able to do for myself.

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Stand For The Family Conference

Date:Friday, November 15, 2013 9 a.m.–5 p.m. Workshops 7–9:30 p.m Super Session/Celebration
Location:South Town Exposition Center
9575 South State Street
Sandy, UT 84070
Conference Purpose:
Eye-opening presentations, solutions and strategies from world-renowned experts and scholars on issues that matter to your family.
You will learn:
  1. How the international sexual rights agenda is threatening families and targeting children worldwide
  2. How to protect your children and family against promiscuity, pornography, and distorted ideas about human sexuality
  3. How to address the sensitive issues of same-sex attraction with understanding and compassion
  4. How to counteract the increasing threats to parental rights and religious freedoms
  5. How to strengthen your marriage and family and improve parenting skills
  6. How to become an effective family advocate so your voice can make a difference

  • Patrick Fagan, PhD, Director, Marriage and Religion Research Inst.; Former Deputy Assistant Secretary for Family Policy, US Dept. of HHS
  • Sharon Slater, President, Family Watch International; author, “Protecting the Family and Children at the International, National and Local Level”
  • Nicholeen Peck, expert, BBC’s most-watched, “The World’s Strictest Parents;” “Family Governance and Revolutionary Parenting”
  • Stephanie & Christian Nielson, bestselling author, plane crash survivors and national celebrities promoting motherhood and family
  • Alan R. & Suzanne Osmond, of the original Osmond Brothers; founders of One Heart Foundation and to strengthen families around the world
  • Patrick Trueman, President/CEO, Morality in the Media; former Chief of Child Exploitation and Obscenity Section, US Dept. of Justice; expert in fighting child sex crimes, pornography
  • Shane Krauser, Director, American Academy for Constitutional Education; attorney, adjunct professor; ”Protecting Religious Freedom”
  • Michael P. Donnelly, President of HSLDA, renowned international legal authority; “Why Everyone Must Be Engaged in the Battle to Protect Parental Rights
  • Don Feder, Director of Communications, World Congress of Families; “The Sexual Revolution and the Roots of Demographic Winter”
  • Donald L. Hilton, MD, author, expert on “The Neuroscience of Pornography: What You Need to Know to Protect Your Family”
  • Steven & Rhyll Croshaw, founders of The S.A. Lifeline Foundation, “Our Story of Overcoming Pornography Addiction”
  • Floyd Godfrey, MA, LPC; author; Director of Family Strategies & Coaching (has worked with more than 600 men); “Understanding Same-Sex Attraction”